Living life

Living life like I'm going to die tomorrow.

I just read an inspirational book, where the author lived his life as if he were to die tomorrow. In some ways this man packed more into life at the age of 50 then most people who live to be a 100.

I've decided to be like him. Like I'll die tomorrow and what kind of mark I want to leave.

One thing is my time on the computer. For the last five years, I have been horribly addicted to it. Just like being a crack addict, I couldn't stay away. It was the first thing I did in the morning and the last thing I did at night. Not the right way I want to live. Funny that my bread and butter (or what it's going to be) is all about computers, but not the social aspects of it.

I do want to continue to blog, but here in itself, this space is going to become defunct. I only want those that love and care about me to read about me, my other blog will be private.

And on that note, I've left a list that has brought me great joy and great pain. I wish all those on that list a very happy life. And someday, when the addiction is over and I am in a better space, I may rejoin. That day may never come, who knows, but I do know that taking these baby steps to wean myself away from the computer is making me happier. I'm sure there will be those moments that I'll want to relapse, but I've already set steps to remind myself why I do not want to do this.

And I leave you with this:

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,
may God hold you in the palm of His hand.

traditional gaelic blessing